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The Gift of My Woundedness

What is the gift of your woundedness? It may require going into dark places to find that gift.

Goddess Inspired

October 9, 2020

Tagged darkness, gift, goddess, Sacredness, Woundedness

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The Gift of My Woundedness

What is the gift of my woundedness? It has required going into dark places to find that gift.

It is hard to think of myself as wounded. Sure, life happens. Losses mount up. But is there really a wound, or am I just weak and not strong enough to deal with life? I think my deepest wounds are not caused by the obvious. I think the deepest wounds may stem from things that happened when I was very young. My deepest wounds were mostly caused by careless words and attitudes, not overt actions.

For example, when I was three, I talked constantly. I was fascinated by the sound of my own voice. One night, my parents told me to be quiet. I understood it to mean that I shouldn’t talk, and I have been a quiet person ever since.

My maiden name was Barbara Byler, initials being B.B. When I was a teen my dad and brother jokingly said those initials stood for Broad Bottom. I was secretly devastated and my confidence and self-esteem plummeted to rock bottom. Not only was I quiet and shy, in the eyes of the people I loved the most, I was also fat and ugly.

Growing up in my household, children were to be seen, not heard. If we questioned anything, especially my dad, it was considered “sassing.” If we were angry, we couldn’t express it out loud. We had to go to our rooms until we cooled off.

These things added up. I desperately wanted the approval of my father and the male authority figures in my life. I learned to be quiet, polite, and compliant. I learned to never express my true thoughts, although they would pop out when I couldn’t hold them in – mostly at the most inopportune times. I looked for approval and validation from people who would never give those things to me.

So the dark times in my life were the times that made me realize the extent of those old wounds. Going through an ugly divorce helped me to see that I looked for validation from the men in my life, and that those men were incapable of giving that validation to me. Bottling up anger led to shows of temper and ugly words that couldn’t be called back. Lack of self-esteem led me to wrong choices in men and other authority figures. But through those dark times, I was learning.

In the dark, I began to see that I was a strong and capable woman, that I don’t need validation by men. In the dark, I began to see that expressing my anger constructively was better than exploding. In the dark, I began a journey of transformation that continuously leads me to becoming my true Self. In the dark, I discovered the Goddess of Life and Death, the deep feminine, sacred ground of being. Without that woundedness that drew me into the dark, I could never have imagined that life could be different, that I could grow into the manifestation of the Goddess that is my birthright and my greatest gift.

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I Am a Priestess Warrior

Yesterday I was working with Modern Day Mystic, Carrie Asuncion. As we talked, she told me that I had lived at least fifteen lifetimes as a priestess of the Goddess.

Goddess Inspired

October 2, 2020

Tagged balance, courage, goddess, past lives, Priestess

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I Am a Priestess Warrior

Yesterday I was working with Modern Day Mystic, Carrie Asuncion. As we talked, she told me that I had lived at least fifteen lifetimes as a priestess of the Goddess.

FIFTEEN LIFETIMES! No wonder I have felt this call to HER my whole life. Considering how women have been treated over the last thousands of years, no wonder I have been afraid of openly admitting that I follow the Goddess.

Following that session with Carrie, I listened to a past life regression with Dr. Brian Weiss. In that regression I saw myself as a priestess of the Goddess, somewhere in ancient Greece. That priestess’s life ended when invaders came to destroy the temple, and she stood to defend it.

This morning on my walk, the words priestess warrior came into my head. When those words popped into my thoughts, I viscerally felt as though I had been called to be a priestess warrior throughout those 15 lifetimes. But what is a priestess warrior?

As I pondered this question, it came to me that a priestess warrior is the perfect balance between the Sacred Feminine and the Sacred Masculine, the balance between Yin and Yang, light and dark. A priestess warrior connects receptivity with action and compassion with fierceness. A priestess warrior is like the mother who protects her children fiercely and lovingly. She is ever vigilant, fierce, wise, beautiful, open, and alert.

A priestess is a teacher, wise woman, practitioner of faith, keeper of mystery, encourager, storyteller, and healer. It is through her lineage that our species learns how to relate to the great mother Gaia and to all of the natural world.

A warrior is a fierce defender, protector, fighter, and one who bravely faces the enemy, even when she is afraid.

When the world is in balance a priestess does not negate the warrior, nor does the warrior negate the priestess. When they are in balance, they are in perfect harmony. Together, they become the image of the Goddess herself.

I am called to be a priestess and a warrior.
I am called to protect and defend the altar of the Goddess.
I am called to teach the ways of the Goddess and her message of balance and wholeness.
I am called to be the keeper and protector of the Great Mystery.
I am called to be strong – to be brave in spite of my fear.
I am called to be a fierce encourager and a mystical healer
I am called to speak the truth as it is revealed through the Goddess.
I am called to be wise – to re-member the stories of the Goddess through the ages.
I am called to be filled with ‘fierce grace’.
I am called to restore the balance between Sacred Feminine and Sacred Masculine, between the Priestess and the Warrior, so that balance may be restored to the world.

I am quite sure that many of us who follow the Goddess are priestess warriors. We just have to remember who we truly are.

Barbara Garland

The Goddess of a Thousand Names

We know you by many names. Isis, Innana, Sophia, Shekinah, Kali, Kwan Yin, Spider Woman, Gaia.

Goddess Inspired

September 12, 2020

Tagged goddess, love, names, rituals

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Hail Goddess!

We know you by many names.
Isis, Innana, Sophia, Shekinah, Kali, Kwan Yin, Spider Woman, Gaia –
A thousand names,
A thousand aspects.

YOU are our source, our rock, our breath.
In your fullness, we are whole.
Even when you hide from us, we feel your presence still.
Our wild, ecstatic souls rejoice in your love.
Our wombs quicken in your holy presence.
Your love is everlasting.

Hail Goddess

As we re-member your holy rituals,
As we re-imagine who you are,
We become re-energized into love.

We drink in your essence.
We become your light.
We become whole.
We embody Goddess.

Hail Goddess of a thousand names. Hail.

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I am a seeker of truth, a truth teller, a lover of the Divine Feminine, an aspiring writer, a mystery, an open book, a work in progress. I have lived a long and varied life, and now in my seventies, I am being called to share some of what I have learned over the years. I hope to share the wisdom of the deep Feminine that is being channeled through me.

If the Goddess has ever whispered to you, I invite you to join me on an incredible journey of love and discovery. May you hear Her wisdom through these words.

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