Tag: Doing

Lying Fallow

In the tumult of today’s world, I need to quiet my soul, to stop the gerbil-on-the-wheel thoughts that invade my mind and keep me agitated and upset. I need to lie fallow for a while, to rest in the deep knowing that I am held and that I am worthy whether or not I am doing anything or accomplishing anything. It is the ultimate self-care – to lie fallow for a while, while my roots grow deep, and I reconnect with who I am at the deepest level.

Goddess Inspired

July 15, 2022

Tagged being, Burn Out, Doing, Nurture, Self-Care

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Lying Fallow

“Sometimes a man can be a lot like a farm. He lets his heart lay fallow for a while, and instead of his feelings dying out, they just go dormant, his emotions growing deeper and stronger as time passes. A person only needs to clear away the weeds on the surface to uncover them.” — Linda Kage

This week I have felt empty, out-of-sorts, and out-of-tune. I feel like the world is closing in on all of us, and I am helpless to make a difference. I feel burned out and tired – tired of the negativity and lack of compassion that I see manifesting daily. Although it is a foolish notion, I feel the weight of the world, and my empathic self wants to be able to flip a switch that will change it.

In this kind of emotional turmoil, I need to let go. I need to allow these feelings to alchemize into something deeper, to transform into something totally different. To do that I need to allow myself to lie fallow.

In agriculture, allowing the land to lie fallow gives it an opportunity to rest and renew. So it is in humans; we must rest in order to be productive later. For me, that means allowing myself to just be while doing the things that nurture my soul. Walking, painting, journaling, meditating, conversations with friends, even mindless video games, can allow my brain to rest or to be engaged in a new way. These things feed me and fill me up. They energize me and allow me to escape the circular thoughts that keep me trapped in my head.

I know that I am not the only one who is feeling the daily negativity. I know that I am not the only one who is feeling helpless to make a difference. While I know that I am more than this body and these thoughts, it is easy to forget that I am not alone, that there is a Source who upholds me even during the worst of times. It is easy to forget that I am enough – that I don’t have to do anything to be loved beyond measure.

Barbara Garland
July 2020

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Pebbles in the Stream, Ripples in the Cosmos

As I go deeper and deeper into the depths of my Soul, I realize that I am enough just because I exist. I realize that when I am being – being patient, loving, trusting, yielding, grieving, raging – that I become the pebble in the stream, sending out ripples that affect the whole.

Goddess Inspired

December 10, 2021

Tagged being, Divine Feminine, Doing, Patriarchy, Ripple Effect

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Pebbles in the Stream, Ripples in the Cosmos

I have always been called to serve other people. When I was a child, I wanted to be a minister or a missionary and was both devastated and indignant when I discovered that my church would not allow a woman to be ordained. With that dream shattered, I had no idea what to do with my life. Even at age 50, I had no idea what I wanted to be when I grew up.

Today I turn 73, and while I was never a minister in the traditional sense of the word, I have been a servant leader all my life. Through my work in blood banking, I have saved countless lives of people whose names I will never know. I have been a mentor and confidant for the many women who have come into my life. I have served as an advocate for children, and I continue to work in my own small way for the betterment of my community. I have been a loving and supportive wife, mother, and grandmother.

Until recently, nothing that I have done seemed enough. In my mind I always could have done better or done more. I always felt like I had to earn my way through good deeds and self-sacrifice. However, as I go deeper and deeper into the depths of my Soul, I realize that I am enough just because I exist. I realize that when I am being – being patient, loving, trusting, yielding, grieving, raging – that I become the pebble in the stream, sending out ripples that affect the whole.

It is in my being, not my doing where I become the whole person that I long to be. It is my being, not my doing where Goddess and I become one. It is in my being, not my doing that I am able to feel the whole range of my emotions without judging myself as good or bad. It is in my being, not my doing, that I am finally able to connect my head and my heart into a radical acceptance of myself as worthy and enough.

The Patriarchy has taught me that I am never enough within myself, that I must always be striving toward better and more, toward a perfection that I cannot reach. The Divine Feminine teaches that I am enough, simply because I am a creation of the divine. When I finally allow that fact to permeate my being, I become the Soul that I was born to be. When I become whole, I open the doors for others to do the same. The ripples of my existence radiate out into the universe touching places that I could never imagine and people that I will never meet.

If you are reading this blog, you are being touched by a ripple of my Soul. I invite you to send out your own pebbles of being, to create ripples that can change everything.

Barbara Garland
December 20

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I am a seeker of truth, a truth teller, a lover of the Divine Feminine, an aspiring writer, a mystery, an open book, a work in progress. I have lived a long and varied life, and now in my seventies, I am being called to share some of what I have learned over the years. I hope to share the wisdom of the deep Feminine that is being channeled through me.

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