What My Soul Desires

I use oracle cards in my meditations and my journaling. The cards are a way to point my conscious mind to the deeper messages of the unconscious. This week has been particularly enlightening, since the cards I have drawn point me to a more profound understanding of what it means to let go and be in flow. The cards that have emerged for me this week have all been about letting go, living in the present, and discarding what no longer serves in order to make room for something new.

I drew the Yin card for two consecutive days. This card is about the deeply Feminine principle of receptivity. It is the empty vessel, waiting expectantly to be filled. For me, it embodies the idea of being, of letting go of control, of allowing what is. While it is a symbol of being in the moment, it also suggests letting go of the old, while waiting for the new.

In addition, I drew the Morrighan, the death card. This card reinforces the Yin card, because its message is to let go of what no longer serves in order to allow the new to be birthed. It is not a comfortable card, because there is a space between letting go of the old and waiting to see what the new will bring. That space is a liminal space of uncertainty and the unknown. It is a space that I want to skip over because I can’t see the future. I am not on solid ground. But it also holds hope, because only when I let go of the familiar can I see the miraculous work of Spirit in my life.

The next two cards that came up this week were “building blocks” and Yhi, the Sun Goddess. These two cards remind me to look at my foundational values and let my light shine. It is important to make sure that my values are strong and solid, that my foundation is built on love, not ego. When I am sure that my foundation is strong, then I can let the light of my Soul shine out into the world and not be afraid.

Finally, I drew “To the sea,” which is all about being in the flow with the universe and Skuld, Goddess of the Future. To the sea points me to being in flow, to allowing Spirit to flow through me, and to let go of struggle. Skuld reminds me that the future depends on who I am in the now. I must plant the spiritual seeds now for them to blossom in the future.

I have also been journaling about what my Soul desires. As I work with all these images, I realize that more than anything, I want to merge with the Holy, to be one with that Source of unconditional love. In order to do that, I must let go of all the old messages of unworthiness, of fear, of separation, of sin. I must strengthen the foundation that invites love and that invites unity. Then I, as the vessel must expectantly wait to be filled with the light that is the love of God/dess and with the magic that is wholeness. When that happens, the future no longer holds fear. I am one with the Holy. I can be my true, authentic self and have the confidence that no matter what happens to this body, I am held for all eternity.  

Barbara Garland
December, 2021